Friday, November 06, 2009
saw his post
which he blogged
at 2am
due to the sms i sent
the gap i created
between us
after i blogged
my previous post
tears dropped while reading
his post
regretted
i seriously regretted
why am i so stupid?
why do i even said such things?
why do i even do such things?
why do i even think this way?
why do i even want to clarify?
i'm plain stupid
and dumb
i'm a goner
he said that
he don't want to receive
any smses from me anymore
not anymore
we've got nothing
to talk anout
i guess
this time round
he'll leaves
i understand
the disappointment
i gave to him
which i myself
also don't want to
due to my sensitivity
and confidence level
got me into such
deep trouble and hurt
deep down my heart
i hope he forgives me
i hope he will still be there
always for me
and by my side
happy fun together
spending our times together
but i know
it's impossible already
who would be so silly
to be together
with such a dumb girl?
i lost him
i lost him from my life
i lost my love
i lost someone
who i love a lot
the pain is killing me
i just hope
to receive his call
or even sms
so i can explain
baby
sorry
i'm sorry
and i seriously love you
if you insist of leaving
i won't stop you
just let me rot
since i'm so useless
i just hope you'll be happier
without me
please take very good care
of yourself
remember your meals
and have enough rest
take very good care
of your back and shoulders also
and again
i'm sorry
`signing off
06.11.2009 ; 9.28am
JESSLYN
